void lyf()

So, here I am, sitting in this so called PDC2 SEZ building, Accenture Pune at my designated terminal with a bunch of identities hung around my neck, one of them depicting me being an employee of some organisation and the other for getting access into this building where I'm sitting. Outside the window, I can see weather changing from light sunny to a beautiful cloudy evening. I want to feel the air rush into me, smell the first drops of water in the soil, but I can't. Thank god, I can have a look at it atleast, and anyways, I don't have time to enjoy all of this, I don't have the 'access card' for it, i guess....

A month has come to an end, and I wonder how had it been. Just a to and fro from the flat(not at all home..) to the office has left no time even to plan to go somewhere, explore this new city, hang out, or meet old friends. All I remember is the sessions I'd attended, the tests given and yet to give, the functions I've written in C (ofcourse a few of them were VOIDs like me...but even they had some purpose). Following the programming syntactics, solving case studies, and yeah, playing pool in the games room is what takes most of my life nowdays. But I seem to enjoy only the last thing I mentioned. Some of the new friends I'v met here have not gotten far from being acquaintances, because there is no time to work on the relationships, in contrast to what I got in 2.5 months at SGSITS. Professional life is all about pretence, and there is no space for personal self, and so I guess, seems to be the reason why I find myself gasping for air even in our 1500+sq.feet 'big' flat.

Turning back, I can see almost 60 of my peers(mildly put...competitors precisely) working hard to finish the tasks assigned by the trainer. I can even look at the girl whose smile makes my day. But then, as usual, I've lost even before I could fight. She has got her 'reason' to smile. Also, I can see few of my college mates too who are no familiar or stranger than any other person in the room.

They say, I think too much. But then, how can one spend even a minute of his life without thinking what its gonna be, or how is it gonna be. Here, at accenture we are taught to align our 'goals and objectives' to the organisation's. But I can't even find one to align with what. Don't know how long will this state of mind(if its just that...!!) going to continue.....and a change is what I need now.